I haven't really been inspired to post this week for various reasons. I'm not going thru writers block at all. Quite the opposite. I have lots on my mind that I could write about, but it all feels too personal to me. I know this is my blog and I can steer it any way I see fit, but I didn't necessarily want this spot to turn into my private lesbian soap box, you know? So I think i've come up with a safe post for the day that can incorporate some relevancy for me and possibly something my readers can relate to.
I believe our lives are filled with many different facets of function that need attention, TLC & support. Typical categories are career/school goals, intimate relationships, friends & family relationships, and extracurricular activities/hobbies. Sometimes, I am blessed to have a happy balance between all aspects of my life. I live & breathe for those moments. Its a beatiful thing to have a stable job I enjoy, ace all of my classes, have great conections with friends & fam, enjoy abundant writing sessions, all while floating on cloud 69 with my gf.
And then I wake up.
Unfortunately that type of harmony doesn't last very long, at least not in Chanel's world. Most times I can manage a little healthy discord. Give me a B on an assignment and I use it as motivation to bust my ass a little harder. If I have a bad case of writer's block, it usually means I'm overthinking stuff and just need to give myself a break. If my gf & I get into it about something retarded, sometimes it means we just feel like picking on each other, or it's a sign of something deeper we need to fix. Thats all fine & dandy occasionally. But when it starts feeling like the air I breathe is filled with negativity, doubt, hesitancy, frustration, anger, disregard & paranoia...it's time to take a serious timeout.
No one is happy all of the time. It's impossible unless you're on some type of illegal pyschadelic mushroom. So i'm not expecting that. But I do expect to be able to stay on track towards a safe happy place more often than not.
So what to do what to do?? Can you force yourself into a happy place? Or do I have to just sit and wait for it?