I post these yearly wrap ups around early- mid December every year. This one is coming a bit later than usual and almost didn't come at all. Alas, I'm writing it and flipping through memories of 2012 as I sit at work and struggle with clock watching because I'm ready to GO. (Mind you, I just got here an hr and a half ago. *shrug*)
Anyway, in these wrap up posts, I assign the year a grade. I'll be honest. 2011 and most definitely 2010 didn't fare so well in the grade book. I think '10 may have pulled a solid D -. It hurts to even think about how awful that year was. 2011 stepped up a bit and may have earned a C+ if my memory properly recollects. (It generally doesn't) Needless to say, I was a bit hesitant of 2012.
Hope & hesitance seem to be besties in my life these days so I approached the year with anxious caution. There's a couple of "situations" that have bottomed out and/or exploded on me and I have found myself using the last few years trying to piece things back together in order to form some sort of logical happy picture. It took some angry sleepless nights and migraines to realize shit doesn't work like that. I cannot control what is or what is not destined to happen. These last few years have definitely taught me the lesson that Chanel controls little to nothing besides what color panties I wear every day. (TMI?) I think this lesson along with doing a lot of introspective work has helped me live in the moment a little bit more and THAT has probably been the game changer for me this year. Things are not perfect and I'm not striving for that anymore. I want progress, not perfection.
2012 has loved me well. I feel more soothed, more stable, and more protected than I have in a long time and my hope is that it can only get better. As long as I keep growing (emotionally & spiritually), keep making good decisions and allow things to happen as they will....I believe 2013 is meant for greatness. Oh, and also I graduate with my MASTER'S on May 18, 2013 so you already know I'm about to be turned all the way up! *dancing*
And look at that. I stopped watching the clock and now it's time for me to get off. Woo hooo. Allow me to take the time to pass out a grade of a B+/A- to 2012. I'm grateful for all of the blessings and laughter I've had over the last twelve months and I look forward to so much more. Love and light to everyone for a beautifully blessed Two Thousand and Thirteen.